okay let’s see. My ex is getting engaged, I’ve been fighting with my boyfriend, I don’t think I’m gonna get into Cal, I….don’t want a relationship. When it comes down to it, as much as I love him & he loves me (ohmagaahh so cayoote, stfu.), I’m just so tired of it. I’m too insecure to be in a relationship and I hate when he says “I understand.” no, you mothereffing don’t. you just don’t. we’re better off as friends. period. everytime I say this and wanna end it, you wanna stretch for it a bit more. I get it, I don’t want a breakup either…they get so ugly. I know for a fact I want you in my future, but I don’t think I want you now. On top of that, the fact that Faisal’s getting engaged is in fact biting away at me. It’s been a year since we’ve been over but really? engaged? I mean yea, it’s time but. idk. REALLY? lol I shouldn’t even be tripping off of this but till last month, you were saying how much you still cared and how much you still wanted to be friends. what happened? care to tell me where you decided, well whup, she doesn’t give a shit, so lemme just go find someone else. I don’t know if it’s that you found someone else or if it’s that you don’t wanna be friends anymore, I just know that that girl could have been me. & that’s biting away at me.